Happy Happy Birthday!!!

Well I am the worst brother in the world. Justin's birthday is tomarrow and I didn't send him anything. So I thought to redeam myself that I would pro-nounce to the blogger nation that its JUSTIN'S BIRTHDAY!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO!!!

Good Luck in your Last Year of School!!!

ps. tahsha could you please mention that this is here for him!!

Thank You!

I just wanted to publicly thank all of you for your very helpful comments to my "poor me" dilemma. It was a rough night for me when I wrote that blog and you've all helped me realize that it's a normal thing for new moms. I am so lucky to have so many wonderful friends & family (I consider you part of the family now Tahsha... welcome!) who would take time out of their busy days to help me boost my self-esteem a bit. You helped me more than you know. To say thanks, I'm posting a few new pictures of David. He's so dang cute, who wouldn't consider seeing him a reward? :)

These are a few pictures to show off David's "domestic" side. He loves to mow the lawn with James & help me with the laundry. He started eating oatmeal & rice cereal a few weeks ago & we started him on vegetables last week. He loves them! He puts everything in his mouth! He's getting so big! Can't wait to see you all soon! Love you!

Self Reflection

Hello to all of my diligent readers. Tonight is a night of serious self reflection. I don’t know what happened to me. As James & I were climbing into bed tonight, I was drowning in my own thoughts of inadequacy. Poor guy, he had no idea what was about to hit him. He tried to goof around and tickle me and I immediately began to cry. All of a sudden I had been blind-sighted by all of these thoughts that have now kept me up for hours. Why don’t I take better care of myself? Why don’t I love myself as much as I love James & David? I’m sorry to bore all of you and I will not at all be offended if you stop reading now. Writing is therapeutic for me, so I thought I would send these thoughts of mine into the blog world. I have been noticing things for a few days now and I think the gravity of them finally hit me like a ton of bricks tonight. I’m a people watcher. It is a wonderful habit that I am able to enjoy wherever I go. Lately I have been paying very close attention to those of my same gender. I see so many wonderful and amazing women every day. Mothers and wives who work hard at taking care of themselves and their families. They all have responsibilities and handle them with grace and beauty. Why can’t I? I’m not saying that I don’t take care of my family, because I do. I will admit that I am a pretty good wife and a very loving mother. But how great can I be if I don’t take time to care about myself? I always plan on getting out of bed early to go swim laps before James leaves for work, but I never do it. I always notice when I need to reshape my eyebrows, but I never get to it before it’s too late. I see the new gray hairs on my head every morning, but I still haven’t had my hair colored since last October. I have a full tube of mascara in my purse and another in my bathroom, but I can’t even remember the last time I wore it. I wear my hair the exact same way every day, a style that takes me a whole 5 minutes to do. But why? Is it laziness? Or do I really just not care about myself that much? I only have about 5 outfits that I wear, which I rotate every week. I use money as an excuse, and even though it is quite a good one, it is not the only valid excuse. I could try harder. I could maximize what I have. I just don’t know how. I am stuck in a rut. I don’t know exactly what kind of comments I am hoping to get from this blog. I just feel like I need some help. Maybe some tips on how to find some more “me” time and actually use it for myself. I’m not saying that I want to be unrealistically gorgeous, but maybe enough to sometimes make my husband take a second look at me or make myself smile in the mirror. Thanks for listening to me whine. Any comments would be appreciated.